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In my head.

  ...   pot sa dorm si sa visez sau sa stau cu ochi deschisi si sa imi imaginez cele mai ciudate(diferite) lucruri .
     Diminetile tot timpu am vise diverse , de cele mai multe ori sunt gandurile negative care imi creaza cosmaruri , monstri care seamana cu un om normal , dar care umbla cu o secera plina cu sange si te face sa simti adrenalina si fiori care ii simti cand te lovesti si curge sange indeajuns de mult incat sa poti sa ii simti si mirosul lui specific , dar de cele mai multe ori in visele mele nu sunt eu cel urmarit , nu stiu cum se face tot timpu cineva apropiat sau care a fost apropiat .
     Eu doar vad actiunea ca si cum as fi un cameraman si nu pot inchide ochii sau sa imi pun mainile pe fata , parca sunt intr-un scaun prins si nu pot face nimic , o chestie care ma omoara fara sa ma atinga , sa nu pot face nimic ca sa schimb ceva ce ma deranjeaza , ma frustreaza , ma omoara pe interior.
                      "Daca a visa putin este un lucru periculos, leacul nu este sa visezi mai putin, ci sa visezi mai mult, sa visezi tot timpul."
                                                                                                    Marcel Proust
                               
     Visele care le am cand dorm ma calca pe nervi , dar vine si partea frumoasa , visele care le am cand ma trezesc si stau dimineata si nu ma gandesc la nimic las doar mintea sa zboare sunt din cele mai frumoase pe care mi le pot imagina . Nu visez bani , masina sau nu stiu ce casa , poate nici nu poate fi numit vis , dar imi imaginez anumite lucruri , de multe ori sunt fantezi de toate feluri ( >:) .)
     Dar de multe ori stau si imi imaginez ca am sa reusesc sa o fac pentru mama si am sa am bani sa ii pot oferi excursi unde vrea ea ( clar in india , de cand cu telenovele astea ) si eu as fi foarte fericit doar reusind sa realizez asta , nu sunt usor de multumit , dar cand cei din jurul meu , cei care conteaza sunt fericiti mie imi ajunge... to be continued

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